It’s pretty funny to wake up in the morning and see her little face poking over the edge of the pack and play right next to our bed! She’s on the move all the time now, and there is no stopping her. It becomes kind of a game of how to keep her safe, contained, and entertained. We recently bought one of those playyards, so we can use that as another, more expansive option if we can’t constantly be on her tail.
Our decision to move forward as a three person, triangle family has definitely been a journey, but I feel clear now, as does RC. Letting the embryos go will still be very sad, but mediated by the excitement of our local recipient family moving forward with their transfer at the end of August.
I think I’ll need to devote a an entire post to this later, but I’ll just say that I strongly disagree and I am sad and frustrated with our clinics policies around their donors. There are many, many half siblings out there, and we just can’t even fathom nor deal directly with that right now. She is our unique, little daughter, who I developed and grew inside of me. It helps me to say this affirmation: I am yours, you are mine, together till the end of Time. Anyway, it’s enough to have dealt with donating our embryos right now.
Having embraced our triangle family status, I am reflecting on the next “big goal” or goals I/we want to set in my/our life/lives. Did any of you go through this after having a child? Ttc was so much of my purpose and life meaning off and on over the last decade plus and, as much as Ellie gives my life meaning and fills it with love, I still need to be working towards something. Travel, further training, thinking about a mom/daughter tattoo. I’m not sure yet.
Summer here is hot!! No AC and lots of fans, and it’s hard to sleep. Other areas have it much worse, I know. What is your summer (and ongoing pandemic) focus?
She's adorable! I'm so glad to hear from you. We are about to embark on more distance learning for the fall semester with a 3rd grader and a 6th grader, her first year of middle school. I'm sad that her experience is somewhat delayed yet thankful we are able to make the distance learning option work for us.
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I’m glad you have an option you feel okay about. It is hard to deal with this new reality and missing out on things. Sending good thoughts!
ReplyDeleteI've been wanting to write about this too, this moving forward with life after so many years of infertility. I'm looking forward to reading about your thoughts with the embryos. It's such an important (and overlooked) topic.
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