10/26/2013

Prayers welcome

I would welcome any prayers or good thoughts at this really difficult time with S and I.  We had a blow up based on a situation that happened at my conference this week.  I chose to take a group hot tub with some colleagues (two men and three women, including me) and S felt I was insensitive in how I communicated around it.  He is packaging it with other recent experience and coming to the conclusion that I don't care for him enough, or in the ways that he needs.  From my perspective, he sees things through a lens of fear and goes right to anger instead of trying to share his feelings more openly with me.  I admit I have a low tolerance right now for this pattern, after having experienced it for a long time now.  I'm ready for more stability and consistent closeness.  Does that even exist?  We're taking a week to reflect and regroup.  I want to use this time to go inward and get more clear about my own feelings and level of commitment.  It is a very hard time for us.
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8 comments:

  1. JennyOctober 26, 2013 at 9:21 PM

    I'm sorry that you're going through this difficult time. I hope you'll be able to work things through. Sending you lots of love. *hugs*

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  2. UnknownOctober 26, 2013 at 9:34 PM

    I'm really sorry you are going through this. Its sucky that relationships that do not require 1000+ compromises seem basically the stuff of fiction :(

    Hang in there, I hope you guys can talk things out and come out stronger for it.

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  3. NellOctober 27, 2013 at 4:01 AM

    I'm sorry that things are stressful right now. Relationship stress is always so tough.

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  4. AliOctober 27, 2013 at 5:09 AM

    I'm sorry you are having to go through this right now. I hope the week is productive for both of you, and that it only brings you closer.

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  5. SunflowerOctober 27, 2013 at 5:31 AM

    So sorry that you and S are going through a rough patch. I hope the "time out" will help you both regroup and work things out. (Hugs)

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  6. AnonymousOctober 27, 2013 at 6:10 AM

    I'm so sorry! *hugs* I hope things improve soon. Sorry I've been so absent lately! Thinking of you!

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  7. UnknownOctober 27, 2013 at 2:12 PM

    I've been a reader for sometime, and I'm sorry to read this. I have to wonder if this relationship is meant to be, or is to possibly more work than a satisfying and lasting relationship should be? You two have to your distinct credit/strength it seems a solid communication. But I wonder if it's meant to go the distance.. I hope you can find your way to the best outcome for you both <3

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  8. JustMeOctober 28, 2013 at 11:38 AM

    Thinking about you...in one of your last posts it seemed like things may be coming to a head. I always say that sometimes you need to fight things out to come out the other side and progress forward. I hope that is what is happening here...a sign of change in your relationship.

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