S and I have broken up. He was the one to officially end it yesterday, on the phone, on his way out of town for a training. Because we have been fighting so much for so long now, it wasn't shocking, but didn't see it coming at that time. I'm sad but also feel some relief. I think it's interesting that this affirmation came to me two days before we broke up: "My relationship is stable and relatively calm, and is filled with love, compassion, and understanding."