It’s the long conversations, virtual and personal
About life, love, whether humanity (and we) have a future
And how it feels to hold your hand day after day,
To kiss each other like we mean it
We keep showing up,
Somehow breaking through the icy fear
That held us back before
Into something bigger, something that holds it all and says,
“We’re good, baby. We can do this. We’re different.”
Miraculous, really, that place.
I think I’ll curl up there now
And dream of love.
I guess I'm feeling romantic. My thoughts are focused on our upcoming trip to Oregon and spending some time together with my family. We will drive up Friday morning, a week from tomorrow, and return by Monday night.
My brother kindly invited us to stay at his place, but sh/cm said he'd like to get a hotel room, and this girl who loves hotels will not be arguing the point! It will be nice to have a home base to have some alone time in-between family gatherings.
What I'm most looking forward to:
- Going on a hike with my brother and his new wife. I'm excited for sh/cm to get to know my brother, who is the person I'm closest to in my immediate family.
- Working out at the athletic club in Eugene, which our family business developed and runs. My sister and brother both work there - my sister with my Dad in the main office, and my brother in the club itself - so when we go there, we will likely have lunch and hang out. And I'll get to see my niece and nephew in the on-site childcare - bonus!
- Dinner and drinks with family. I imagine we'll go out to a nice dinner and hopefully everyone will relax and get to know each other better over some good food and wine.
- Spending playtime with my niece and nephew! (at their house) My nephew just turned two and will be super fun and probably all about the physical play. My niece is four now and into imaginary play and reading (unless that's changed). I can't wait! It will be fun to see sh/cm around the kids, and he also may spend some of this time on this own, taking a break.
I'm going to have a phone conversation with my Dad sometime this week and say something about my hopes that he will make an effort to get to know sh/cm. My Dad can be somewhat quiet and, let's just say,
Cycle-wise, I'm on Day 9 of a Femara cycle. I have felt more tired than usual, and I'm not sure if that's related. No signs of ovulation yet, which is awesome after ovulating on Day 10 last month. Hoping I make it at least to Day 12. . .