I have really been lax on posting! I'm not sure what's going on, other than I've been kinda busy and tired. Plus, I feel like I don't have much going directly relevant to my primary blogging community of infertile/SMC/ART women. Oh well. I still love you guys and am following along with blogs. I'm sharing some recent pictures of the Halloween cookies I mentioned in the previous post, me and Zoey on Halloween (she's wearing a bandana saying, "Tricks for Treats!"), and friends and I last night celebrating election results.
- Last weekend, I went to the conference in Vegas and was totally smoked out just walking through the casino in the hotel. That place is the most unhealthy place on earth. Yuck. The conference wasn't that great either, though I met some cool people. We saw an entertaining show one night called, "The Tournament of Kings." I'm sure some of you have seen it, as it's been playing forever. Lots o' horses, pageantry, jousting, and special effects.
- I'm really proud of myself for being brave and directly asking S about what he was thinking and about the amends process that had been put on the back burner. I didn't do this in our relationship before when I should have and this felt like an opportunity for a "do over." His answer wasn't thrilling, but at least it was honest. Thank you, S! I'll probably write more about this situation later but basically he can't likely give me what I would need to trust him again, and he's feeling insecure/withdrawn due to losing his job (with a software startup company), AND I have other doubts. I do hope we can finish the amends process, though, as that would be helpful whether we're friends or just "see each other around."
- I missed Zoey sooo much when I was at my conference! My housemate was primary babysitter, and I wrote him a super long list of information about her care, as well as calling him every day to check in. I was so excited to get home and see her and just felt the biggest surge of joy. The intensity with which I missed her surprised me; definitely more than I've experienced before! Guess we've bonded. ;-)