As you might have imagined, this last cycle came to an end a couple days ago. I've been feeling physically and emotionally down but not despairing. Maybe I'm kind of numb. I went shopping and to happy hour yesterday, perhaps that says something?
I'm not excited to start this job at all, which sucks. I want to be excited and hopeful. Nervous is normal, but dreading it? What was I thinking applying for a teaching job with junior high school hormone-fueled wild eyed provocateurs kids? Even if it is in career development, a subject I love and love to share.
I'm having nightmare imaginings of kids throwing things and talking loudly and refusing to pay attention or engage with the material at all. Also, that I will have no down time and will feel overwhelmed and completely drained halfway through the day.
I guess the good news is that anything that does actually happen will likely be better than what I'm imagining!
Did I mention I have to be there at the school Tuesday morning at 7:50 a.m. to meet and greet the teachers etc. and then head into our first of SIX class periods at 8:30. Those of you who are teachers will be laughing at me I'm sure. You do this every day.
Sorry for the less than uplifting post. I think I'll be in a better mood later this week. . .