I'm about to go read me some more of the book, "Undefended Love," which I shared about in a previous post. If you go through a heart-wrenching breakup, you may as well get some personal growth out of it, right? The exercises I've done so far have been helpful, though I'd like to be doing them with a partner. C'est la vie.
I'm becoming more and more convinced that my time right now should be spent on working on myself versus seeking a man. I'm tired of
Regardless of the veracity of her prediction - and actually I need to write another post about growing doubts I'll even have a biological child - I'm sick and tired of Ma.tch f'ing com and all the other crap dating sites. I'm too weird (i.e. too 'deep' and artsy and progressive, etc.) to find my match on there.
Plus, I'm still sorting through the remnants of my breakup with S. We talked on the phone Thursday night, which felt surprisingly good. He proposed we just check in that night about what had been happening in our lives and then talk again in two or three days about the relationship, to which I agreed. Since the conversation, I've been thinking of him more and missing him. I know, however, that what I need to focus on is getting more clarity and possibly healing.
I think part of missing him is just plain feeling lonely. This book is helping me to not run away from those feelings. . .