Today was split between stress and pleasure, tension and ease.
It started nicely enough at the "Hole in the Wall" restaurant for an early breakfast with sh/cm, my 91-year-old Grandpa, cousin, cousin's husband, and two little kids.
Afterwards, though, sh/cm and I had tension come up around this trip and expectations around roles and support. He was wanting more appreciation and ease, and I was wanting more support and understanding (I wish spending time with family was nothing but sunshine and roses but that's not the case.).
The hike we took - a great workout and set among old growth trees, lush ferns, moss. and creeks - left me annoyed by sh/cm trying too hard to engage and be funny, in my opinion. I didn't want to feel that way, but I did.
But, we actually had a conversation about it and tonight's participant-created sushi dinner at my sister's house was easeful, warm, and joyous. Good food and a feeling of support and being "on the same wavelength" with sh/cm.